Saturday, May 1, 2010
i'm a tool
i have been blessed/cursed with a mind that is incessantly trying to figure things out. i see a fountain in the park and instantly questions arise: is water is fresh? how is the water is being pumped up to the top of the fountain? how big of a pump does it take move that much water? is there more than one pump? do kids throw coins into the fountain? does someone regularly clean out the coins? how does the city handle the 'proceeds' from the fountain? do they have to chlorinate the water? how much water does the fountain hold? and on and on and on.
its not good enough to know how it works, i want to know how the system works all the way down to the basic elements. in an ideal world, i would like to know enough about a system so that i can instinctively know what the basic pieces of the system are doing for any particular output.
clearly there are some systems that i want to know more about that others. computers & networking for example, have always fascinated me. i want to know what makes them tick, and want to understand the why and the how of it all. i think that's what makes me good at my job. when i encounter a problem, i want to know how the problem came to be, and understand how all the variables played a part in creating it. oftentimes, i resort to workarounds or just don't have the energy to do it because i'm burned out, but if there were no time constraints it would give me comfort in getting to the root cause of them all.
another system that i'm very curious about is earth's biosphere. specifically the role of the male gender of species homo genus sapiens.
here are some things that i find fascinating:
in higher life forms, there are two sexes, male & female
new life is by default female, it requires an external trigger to start a chain of events to create a male
therefore males are more specialized version of the species
specialized to what end? for war with all the other males mostly if you look at the male competition for females in nature.
gentlemen, i take no pleasure in telling you this, but the human male is built for war. war can assume many different forms, physical war (guns, swords), mental war (politicking), and on some levels i'm sure.
so how does my life fit into all of this? i feel that males are a specialized form of the human species. take a female brain, mitigate the emotive sources, tune it to solve problems, remove the child bearing systems to increase physical performance and you end up with a man.
the way i see it, we were created by women to serve them. the sole reason for your existence is to provide for a woman.
Posted by Eugene at 1:36 AM